As I age, does time?

I usually throw myself a huge birthday party and Celebrate my birthday greatly. It’s MY new year, right? This year I wasn’t as excited about it. Made 39 yesterday, but I am NOT 40, lol.

My mom & her boyfriend boiled crawfish for us! It was so awesome!

I spent my weekend working because that’s what I do. Today, my sister & friend surprised me with cake & an orchid. Everyone really came through for me this year. I feel special.

I dressed up today, for my evening date. The date was cancelled and of course I cried. I didn’t want to cry though. I wasn’t angry, there was a very good reason behind it. I am just lonely.. I am someone who has lacked intimate touch from a significant other, being single for over a decade. Now I want that comfort.

All of these feelings, but as I look around my little 3 bedroom 1 bath house, my old car, and now my studio for my art. We all have what we need and I am pleased with that. I absolutely have much more aspirations, and that’s why I am in college.

I am alone, but I am blessed.

I am grateful for the life I do have.