Relationships are something that doesn’t come easy for me. Stemming from past trauma, I not only have walls but literally space and touch issues. It even goes as far as fear of making eye contact with men in public areas. I spent over a decade single, living on my own, half of that In toxic situations, and alot if that time avoiding all relationships.
When I finally made the decision to start dating again, a few years ago…. I didn’t know how. My expectations were unrealistic, I ignored a few red flags, put myself in awkward situations with friendships. Ended just about all of those.
All of this was needed in my journey. Then I spent 2 years in a committed cycle of Torture with someone who didn’t appreciate me, value me, and the list goes on.
You see I just figured that once I changed my life 8.5 years ago I should just know how to date. However there are lessons we simply can not skip if we want a good grade.
This year I have been discussing relationships with my therapist. I have been practicing all types of relationships, including with myself.
I am learning acceptance. Mostly of myself. Tonight I was talking about my journey. Then it became clear to me. Some of all of this is our journey! Some of us are more connected to different parts of that journey and others are just passing by.
I personally not only want to continue to practice these relationships but I want to add genuine value to them. I as a human, are grateful to share this existence with you, human.
“Some of all of this is OUR journey”
Kimberly Dawn Hebert-Artist & photographer

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