I have a voice inside that tells me,” you will not succeed and you should just give it. What does any of it matter? You’re getting older, who are you kidding? How will you physically be able to do life. You waited way too long to try to correct your life.”

I usually reach out to my sister when this happens, she is so good at pointing out my accomplishments. I know this is negative self talk, but there isn’t a way to silence it. But listing the things I have accomplished and overcome usually outshines the negative talker.

Here’s the newest negative news. I am dealing with life circumstances with my sister (the one I care for). My separation anxiety is in full bloom, as well as isolation, my fight or flight has done both! I had a nervous breakdown.. and now this little voice is telling me every time something serious is going to happen my skills I have learned to cope with my anxiety and depression have gone out the window!

My solution is to work harder on those coping skills and I am working on getting a set schedule for therapy going again. I should add discipline, time management, and meditation.

My anxiety cripples me… Makes me physically sick. Stomach ache.. chest pains.. headaches.. irritated I’m my own skin…

This all transpired on Saturday. Today is Friday, I made it out of the house yesterday, but had to take 40 min. Nap. I got out today to get my sister to her therapy session. Hoping to get groceries tomorrow and possibly make it to art walk!