Now that I am looking back at my last post, I thought I was only depressed a little over a month, but it’s been 3 months. However, I had my assessment yesterday for my new therapist. So I have to be headed in a better direction. I am way more depressed since my last post.

I am convinced it was a trauma response that triggered my anxiety daily as well as my financial circumstances. When I am in a high state of anxiety over a long period, that will result to depression. Once my depression settles in, I don’t feel like I have any control what so ever.

I’m beginning to feel hopeful knowing I can start therapy next week. That in itself is huge progress. Two days ago I felt completely hopeless. It’s tough having this episodes because I know in my head I have good moments but I can not remember them right now. The push and pull mental hoops are exhausting. I feel like progress doesn’t matter when it can so easily strip away.

Well, this post is definitely thr most candid I’ve blogged. I hope to share more hope soon.